October 6, 2011
Thursday 11:43 Am
Hi! Gikan ko exam. Asa naman pud ka, wan a man pud ka nitxt after sa “goodmorning”. What time diay ka gapaunli gahapon? Anyway, thank you so much gahapon ha. Nalipay ko kaayo , kaayo, kaayo. Bisag dili na ta mag-uyab, dili na ta momy-dady, bisag friends ra ta, you still made me feel loved and needed. Ug sa dihang nitxt kag kalit karon nangumusta sa exam ug gapa share ug 5. J mana ug share. J load jud 10. J 12:00
14:12 dugaya pud ka momata , diba time-in man kag 1:30? Para asa kaha nimo ang akong gipang forward nimo nga quotes noh nga imong na erased, why imo man ipa send ug balik? Naa kai sendan? Selos ko dah. Isipin ko nalang na gi value nimo akong mga forwarded quotes and imong gipang saved. J
14:16
October 7, 2011
Friday, 11:43 Am
Dugaya ko kayo nakatog ug balik gabii uy. Gabakho ko kaayo. Mao na jud ni ang atong cycle. Human ko nimo lipayon ug pabuhian ug dugo, bawion dayon ug dobleng kasakit. Sa tanan pa jud nga wrong sent, ang parang Roche pa jud na dung nako? Pa as if ka nga sige kag txt nako nýa wa ka kadawat sa akong txt kay kay busy ka niya. If motxt siya, masapawan ko. Ayo pa siya kay gisheran nimo nga watch kag movie nga hadlok2x. di siya boring katxt noh? Close friends man gud pud mo. Sa imong unli, murag less than 20 ra ko nimo gitxkan, pang respetora bitaw. Kung tinuyo man to, grabe na jud ka kaayo, you know what would I feel. Salig lang jud siguro ka kay inlove ko nimo. Naa bayay kahumanan ang tanan. Kahibawo kag unsay akong huna-huna? Nga gapa share lang kag load nako para maka txt2x mo just like what you did before. She knows you more than I know you. I’m too blind to see it. Nganung mo complain man pud ko noh? Bright kaayo ka, gikuhaan ko nimog right nga makareklamo. Yeah, I’m not your girlfriend, not even your friend, I’m just your SEXMATE sa klarong pagkasulti. L
Sa prangkang pagkastorya, nasakitan ko kaayo karon ug wan a ko makauyon sa atong sitwasyon. I made up my mind already. We have to separate our ways permanently. Kinahanglan na ka nako langkaton sa akong life totally. Wa man gihapon tay padulngan. Makadaot na sa usag-usa. Hindrance ra ko sa imong kalipay ug sa imong gusto nga mo settle down just because while naa pa ko, mabahin ang imong huna-huna. Ikaw rapud ang nag-ingon nga while motxt pa ko, naa pa kai hope nga magka kita in the end. Same as me, ingana pud akong huna2x that’s why nasakitan kog ingon ani. Bisag friends ra ta, magkanunay naa akong hope that’s why apektado ko kaayo if mantiniran ra ko nimo ug txt or nay nilabaw nga friends nimo nako sa pagkuha sa imong attention. But wa koi mahimo kay wa koi right masuko. Gilu-om nalang ni nako. Nakafeel ko nga igo rana kaluoy ang imong gipakita nako but I’m sorry I don’t need it. Pero I appreciate it. Kahit paano gigahinan ko nimog time gamay. I just need to set a strong boundary natong duha. No more sweetness. Just plain kaila ra ta. Gi block list nako imong numbers para di na ko makadawat ug txt from you. Assuming pud ko nga motxt ka noh bisag di gud. Lisud, sakit, but it’s for the good natong duha and ikaw pud ang maka benefit ani. Just go, fly away and be free. Don’t think of me anymore, I’m just done my mission in your life. I still love you and I always will but I need some space/ air to breathe, I’m too tired and hurt. I can’t bear further pain anymore. Honestly, nasakitan ko kaayo ron, gamahay ko why nagbalik pa tag txt, I feel very small sa role nako sa imong life. But di man ko magdumot samot na nimo. Mahuwasan ra ni akong gibati ron sa umaabot nga mga adlaw. But no more us. Give up na ko. Have to love and respect myself. di na ko dapat ipakababa akong kaugalingon. Kung mahuwasan na ko, I will include you na in my prayers. Pagkugi ug sugod sa kasugdanan Kid, with prayers and ayaw pagdali kay ma pressure ra ka. Mo settledown ra ka puhon. Gibansay lang kag maayo ni God kay dili basta2x ang Iyang ihatag nimo nga pares.
21:00
October 9, 2011
Sunday, 13:49
How are you? Musta ang duwa gabii? Wala man gud ka nireply. Gikaon nako akong pride. I removed your name/number from the block list and restore it to my phone. But still got no txt from you. Na hurt napud ko but wa koi mahimo. Ga smart siguro ka or whatever imong gipangbuhat. Daghang nahitabo sa 2 days. I don’t know if motxt paka. Know what, gapaunli pa naman ko last Wednesday, kadtong niabsent ka. Unli ko 15 days just for you. Pero ok ra. Thank you gihapon sa time. I’m just very focused on you. I know the reality that I’m just your 2nd or 3rd choice or layo ra anang duha. Unlike before nga first jud. Bitaw, nag emote ra gud pud ko. L
Nakigstorya nalang ko aning papel para makuhaan akong kasakit gamay.
Hate this feeling.
I want you not only for sex,
I love you but can’t be with you!
13:58
Words from a friend I seeked advice from him:
“Jesus is God’s beloved Son
sent to the world to set free
His beloved creation (man) from sin
But men rejected and betrayed Him Him.
Men are so ungrateful to
God’s greatest love.
What do you think?
Is there something greater than this?
Shame on me to complain. My pain is nothing compared to what has been stated above.
October 10, 2011
Monday, 13:49
Watch unta kog “the Notebook” but wa nahuman, makapungot, nabitin ko. Nagkatalk ta kadyot sa phone ganina but klaro kaayo nga wa ka nalipay. Istorbo man gud pud ko kaayo, time of work pa baya nimo. Earlier pa, gi open nako imong fb. Gipulihan nako imong profile pic. Then nag message si Roche about napud sa imong baby, gi mention niya Nichole Shayne ug si Snooky. Gitawag pa jud ka niya ug my love. Mention pa siya nga hubog ka kaayo gabii. Ayo pa siya kay nakahibawo, giingnan ko nimo ug txkan after nimo magcharge, gapaabot tawon pud ko. Pero ok ra uy, bisag niingon kag di ka moinom, kasabot ko, nagcelebrate baya mo sa graduation ni Osric. Kahibawo ka, gaselos ko kaayo ni Roche but wa ko nangaway ha, gachat mi kadyot ganina gamit imong fb pero wa ko gapa as if nga ikaw, para ma aware pud siya nga di ikaw ang online, gawas pa basin gituyo pud to, naa baya kas CPG if Monday. Then wa pud koi right mangaway, gawas pa, siya man jud imong labanan. Kahilakon ko but kaya ra ni nako. By the way, giutro nako imong password – it’s your birthday na. Pawala-wala nalang ko ani.
18:07
I miss you so much!
I love you so much!
Take care always. . .
You’re keeping yourself and your heart away from me, I’m so sorry kung mo reach pajud kog pugos nimo usahay. But promise, I’m working on it nga di na ka nako mabulabog. Basta, deep inside I’m yours eventhough you’re not mine. L
October 12, 2011
Wednesday, 7:36 Am
Last Monday, pasalamat k okay nitxt ka after sa akong tawag nimo sa store. Nagtxt ta but ako ang niuna ug stop and no good night. Kahibawo ka, taud2x pa jud ko nakatog adto, nakahilak pa ko gamay kay di man pa ko gusto matog. Saying kay labon nitxt pa ka but I know tingkatog napud to nimo and the main purpose jud was to limit myself sa pagreach nimo.
Gahapon, ikaw kinaunhan nitxt pag morning, wa lang ka kahibawo but I was so happy, nagtxt ta but dili kaayo dugay hantod wan a pud ka motxt.
Wa pa jud gitugot nga makakita kos movie ng “the Notebook” ug “Friends w/ Benefits.”
Wa ko kapugong at night, nitawag napud ko nimo. We laugh when we talked about our invention nga cellphone one-time charging then lifetime use. J naputol kay nanihapon mo. Txt kadyot then slept early. It was a very cold stormy night. Taud2x pa pud ko nakatog. I was thinking of you, of us. Naka sense pud ko, nga like what I’m doing, you are also setting a gap between us kanang friends ra jud ta bah. The only different was that, effortless ka upon doing it. Ako, muna-muna tawon but makaya ra nako ni. Thanks for helping me. We were helping each other in building our relationship and we’re helping each other in destroying it. You know what, everytime ingnon ko nimog pilosopo, arte, maru, yaya, buing, etc.. for me, it’s a compliment and I hope someday, you’ll take time to think about me panagsa lang, moingon kas imong huna-huna: “kadto raba siya kay pilosopo, perting arteha, maru, hilakon, yaya pajud mostorya, trying hard/frustrated singer.” Bisag unsa nalang gud, nairita man ka or wa, hope makatawa pud ka usahay sa akong mga craziness. I know I’m kinda boring sometimes, and many are better than me, but, this is me like what you’ve said, “be yourself.” Makahinumdom diay pud ka nga maldita kaayo ko, selosa kaayo ko and papansin kaayo ko. Yeah, it’s kinda true. But kanang papansin and selosa, para nimo ra na.
I loveyou so much Kid! I miss you so much pajud! Amping permi! Good luck sa duwa unya! Hope di na magbagyo/mouwan.
God bless! J
8:25 Am
October 13, 2011
Thursday, 7:24 Am
A teary and cold morning! Nakatog kog hinilak gabii, pagmata nako karon, continue gihapon, huuuh makapungot. Mahaya nako why nitawag pa ko nimo gabii uy. Wa unta ko nagselos. Why selosa man gud, ang nakamaot kay di pa jud ta uyab. Nanghingampa lang ko bah, why sa lain maningkamot man jud kag reply bisag forwarded ra, nako pajud ka gapaload, bisag gabii na kaayo ningkamot gihapon moreply while ako, sayo2x paman unta, but wan a ka gapaload. Karon, naana pud koi limit sa akong tawag. After 30 minutes matog na daw ka. Nindot pa kaayo akong katawa2x but ang ending maghilak ra diay pud ko. Thanks sa concern diay about adtong tawo nga nag attempt musud sa amoa ha. I should not give meaning sa tanan nimong gipangsulti. Good luck sa training! Amping! God bless! 7:33 Am
15:18 lipay ko ganinang buntag bah kay nagtxt ta kadyot nya nawala kag kalit, gakatawa lagi kog taman kadtong US lagi daw naa sa middle east.
But pagkawala nimo, guol napud ko. Bug-at akong heart lami hilak, makapungot lagi ko oi! Ayo gani kay nitxt napud ka paglunch time. Gapahibawo nga naana kas barko. Lipay napud ko kaayo, then nawala napud, is it because kamo nagtxt? Or walay signal sa lawod? Hope tungod kay walay signal sa lawud or tungod kay nakatog ka bah.
Gahimo diay kog albums sa imong fb, akong ilain-lain ang pics unta but wala nahuman kay hinay kaayo ang connection. Hope magamit nimo ni imong fb someday.
Anyway, pila diay ka txt imong gigahin nako sa imong 250 txts to other networks? Nahurot na? mao siguro wan a ka motxt. Swerteha pud na siya uy, ningkamot man jud ka makapaload tungod niya, sukad ra jud na sauna. I’m not only referring to one girl ha, daghan baya na sila. Makapungot jud ka kayo kinapungotan, lami kayo ka targeton bah, targeton sa pana ni Cupido para mainlove ka nako! J hahay, sakto jud ka sa imong giingon gabii, BOANG jud ko kaayo! J naboang nimo, tsk!!!
15:29
October 15, 2011
Saturday, 18:45
Happy kaayo ko Kid! Thank you for spending your night with me last night didto sa hotel while you were alone. Nag overflow akong kalipay but you just failed to say this phrase to me “ILOVEYOU”. Pero sige lang, I LOVE you gihapon super duper I LOVE YOU. Thank you sa time, thank you sa pag need nimo nako thank you, thank you, thank you! Kahibawo ka, taud-taud pako gabii, after I closed my eyes, my mind still wandered in the place where you were, and I continued kissing your lips and the rest of your face. Then pagmata nako, I still smiled murag naa ra kas akong tapad. Hadlok napud ko basin mabawi dayon napud. Ayaw sa ko pahilaka karon adlawa Kid ha?! I love you so much Kid always jud na. but happy ko overall. Bisag nawa kag kalit ganina pag-abot nimo inyoha niduwa kag basket but nagtxt man pud tar on while gasuwat ko. I love you kayo Kid! I know ma expire na ka ron taud-taud, mingawon napud ko nimog samot. I hope mingawon paka nako and txkan pa ko nimo puhon. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH KIDRON DADY KO! 18:56
19:05 by the way, nakawatch nakog “Friends w/ Benefits”, nice story, nice movie, kadto pud “the Notebook” nice pud kaayo, but you know what, make made them so special, it’s because, kita ka and kita pud ko! J wa lang ka kahibawo but that really means a lot to me. J
Kita napud kog new pics nimo but familiar na ko ang pics gisendan nako nimo adto sauna. Akong giapil sa imong album sa imong fb. Kumpleto na jud imong album hapit. Abi siguro kag sige rakog fb noh or watch og bold, ngana man jud imong hunahuna ingon ka. If you know lang, mas permi ko mo open sa imong fb balik-balik tan-aw sa imong pics, ibalhin ra nako if nay laing tawo. Dili ko mabung mao to nakagama kog albums nimo. Hope ma appreciate nimo akong gibuhat ug di ko unta nimo kasab-an nga sige kog panghilabot. Bahala ka uy. Wa koi mahimo, kay labaw na kong way mahimo sa akong feelings. Mao na jud kini, ikaw ra jud ako! 19:15
October 16, 2011
Sunday, 16:57
Is that what you really think of me? You know what, happy ko this morning pagkahibawo nako nga nagmiscol ka 10 times pa jud, call na unta to kung natubag pa nako. Nasayang ko kaayo, nisamot ko kalipay kay nagtxt ta unlike in the past two Sundays, but nakurat lang k okay nikalit kautro ang tanan. Even me is dying to talke with you but wrong timing lang jud kay naa koi mga kauban and dili pud ko registered sa call. Hantod nalain imong huna-huna or daan ra jud na siya nga lain. You don’t directly told me but kasabot man ko. Ngano diay kung ikaw mawa ug kalit, pasabot diay naa kai laing katxt, kaistorya or unsa pang binuhatan? Why kung ako maot naman kaayo kung mawa lang ko kadyot? Customers? Unsa diay akong gibaligya, lawas? Tarungon nako? Ang unsa, ang pakipag fonsex sa lain? Sakitan man ko kaayo. Nagkeep kog green jokes? Wala man. Di man pud ka nako ma blame kay bisag dili ta uyab, makig phone sex gihapon ko nimo. Meaning bah diay ana nga daghan mo or ingana pud ko sa uban? How about sa mga laing adlaw nga libre ko and nagkinahanglan ko nimo,but,wala ka, gisabot man nako nga dili na ka akoa naymore. Sorry sa pag correction nako sa “making love” nga sex ra kay mubo ra. I didn’t mean to insult you but try to hear from you, basin diay moingon ka makig ingana ka nako kay love ko nimo gihapon. Nakatog ko gikan wan a man gud lami imong gipanulti, makasakit na kaayo, but ikaw napud ang wala moreply ron, maybe unya kung makatawag ko nimo, dili napud ko nimo tagdon, awahe na ang tanan. Pero bisag ingana ra ko sa imong huna-huna, dawaton nalang na nako atleast naa pa koi papel sa imong life. Kung ingana jud imong huna-huna nako, meaning dili ko nimo kayang higugmaon, kinsa gud pud lakiha ang mahigugmag ingana nga bae. Basta. I know myself, yes, I might be sometimes flirty, naughty and horny but nimo ra jud. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH KID ALWAYS . . . 17:21
October 06, 2011
Wednesday, 7:01 Am
I feel sad and empty lately but I tried my very best to understand the situation and not be affected. You’re right when you sent the quote that goes like this : “if you want happiness, don’t be a beggar for love but a donor of love.” J murag na beggar naman gud pud ko sa imong love that’s why siguro permi ko masakitan. Aware man ko ana but gahi lang jud kog ulo. After few days of feeling fine, as if murag ok na ko kintahay, but, nakahilak gihapon ko gabii, abi man gud kog mag storya ta. Bisag 30mins ra gud unta. Giandam na nako ang atong storyaan para dili ma waste ang few minutes basta lang magkastorya ta. Maki-usisa unta ko about news sa PMI, musulti ko nga kita na kos pics nimo sa birthday ni Jed, nga friends na mi ni Rowena sa fb, etc…
Well, I realized nga respeto ra jud tong pagsugot nimo nga motawag ko. Just like the other night, naka sense siguro ka nga motawag ko mao nga gi off nimo imong phone. Midyo nahuwasan ko ganina mga 1am nakamata ko then pagtan-aw nako sa phone nitxt ka mga 12. But mao man gihapon, wa man gihapon ka nakigstorya. L
It made me sadder and think that gituyo to nimo para morning na nako mabasa and molabas nga gusto pud ka makigstorya but natog na ko. Ayo pa lagi nga wa ko kamata para morning na nako mabasa then mag assume ko nga gusto pud ka. But maybe, gituyo pud sa higayon para makarealize ko nga din a ko dapat maingani nimo. Imagine, gapaunli kog 7 days just for you but kaisa ra nako nagamit. Di na kita but I’m still acting like/doing things nga the same sa kita pa, which is wrong. Once again, I deleted your name sa phone, hope dili na nako e-save ug balik. Maghuwat nalang lagi ko when ko nimo hinumduman, kamingawan, storyahan ug txkan ug kinahanglan. When pa kaha ni nako mahimong routine Kid? Hope ASAP. I miss myself before, kadtong time nga naka get over na ko sa akong feelings for Carlo and before ko nainlove nimo. I should not dwell on our past. I love you Kid! I love you so much! I miss you dady Kid! L I missed the time when you said “I love you” to me. L
7:36 Am
November 9, 2011
Wednesday, 10:50 Am
I was very happy adtong time nga nagbalik ta. Nabalik ang atong relationship, ang mga lines nga nag contain ug “I love you”, “I miss you”, u gang atong tawagan nga “momy” and “dady”. What’s missing? Ang ginagmayng away2x and misunderstandings and confrontations. Each one of us nagpugong and maybe trying to be mature and widen our understandings. Well, this is really good. But, dili kay kana ra, lately, nakabantay ko that we are not like before. I know you feel the same. I can’t even tell if I still know you now as much as I knew you before. We’re back on track but seems like layo na ta sa usa’g-usa, unlike before nga bisag layo ta in distance, but, close jud ta kaayo. Now, murag daghan ng hesitant. Ambot ngano ni. You’re getting cold. Or kulang lang jud kos attention. Kung magtalk ta, maulian ko sa akong worry ug kaguol but after ana nga conversation, motigbabaw jud ang imong kabugnaw nako. I’m sorry kung gahuna-huna kog ingani. I love you so much and afraid ko nga mawala ka nako. I just have to adjust myself. kinahanglan ma lesser imong time para nako para you have more time to be happy. Our relationship has come to its natural death that we don’t need to shed tears. Enough na jud siguro ang atong pinagsamahan. We both learned from each other. I don’t want to be selfish. Bisag uyab ta, you’re always free. I only own you in my heart. Safe ka diri.
Kita kos fb sag f ni Carl, nay album didto sa birthday ni Chai2x, and permi ka ma caught adto sa camera nga nag txt2x ka. Last 2010 man siguro to. I assume nga ako to imong katxt, and I’m so happy. Kita kos imong porma nga nagtxt. Last night before I went to sleep, I spent too much time thinking of you. And wa ko napakyas, gidamgo ta jud ka tibuok gabii. J I love you and I miss you so much!
11:16 Am
November 14, 2011 – your mom’s birthday!
Monday, 14:53
Thank you for calling me last night. Happy kaayo ko more than you could ever think. Thank you for reminding me again how much you love me and for letting me feel that you still need me. Fifty minutes is too short for a conversation with you but it was great! J in just fifty minutes, you have opened up my mind and helped me grow into a mature person when it comes to love and relationships. We are old enough to spend so much time for nonsense quarrels instead of widening our understandings. Thank you for holding me, I’m feeling safe now. Dady Kid, my love for you is always at its maximum level in my heart, no one could ever replace you here. I’m mature now dady. I know you love me because if you don’t, you wouldn’t have waste your time, money and tears for me. I feel blessed and overwhelmed to be loved by you. J I can feel your love despite the great distance between us. I just hope that you feel the same way too. I love you so much, I really, really love you so much dady Kidron!
We believe each other.
We love each other.
We have faith and we know that what we have now is real.
You taught me everything about love dady. Kahilakon ko sa kalipay nga gahuna-huna nga ikaw akong uyab.
Salamat kaayo sa love dady ha. J
You are always my dady gwapo and the best boyfriend in the world.
Mwaaah, mwaaaaah, mwaaaaah! 15:39
