The Closure :(

February 21, 2012

Tuesday, 13:27

Here I go again, writing a letter for you although you will not read it.  Guess what? Yeah, once again, I feel so down that is why I found myself again landing on this blog dashboard exclusively for you.  It’s a very long time since my last visit here.  I didn’t even able to published my latest blogs written on papers because I was busy being happy with you. Though we quarrel sometimes, but I’m still happy that I still have you.

Do I really still have you at this moment? I think not anymore. I know, I gave up last Wednesday.  It was the very first time that I didn’t response all your messages which I didn’t do before even if we were on a fight.  Hope you understand my feelings. I was feeling rejected, until now. I am your girlfriend right?  But why is it very easy for you to ignore me when there is another girl whom you called FRIEND approaching you?

We were talking on the phone but suddenly, there was another call which made you left me hanging.  I would surely understand if it was a customer of yours, but it was not. It was your friend, a girl friend, and, you were just talking non-important things. I was the one you’re talking with first but you left me because of her? We seldom talk right? But, it seemed that you enjoyed more when talking to her than me.  You just didn’t do it once, but, twice or more than twice, and I can’t stand the pain for longer time. 

You’ve just moved on, maybe. Well, good for you.  This would be our last.

 I really want to believe that you loved me. I do believe.

Well, as to fulfill my last promise to you, I was able to send a gift for you yesterday. Yes, a Fossil watch, hope you’ll like it a bit and you’ll receive the watch in a very good condition. A note was included but just ignore whatever written there.  The gift is for closure, even though the phrase “I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DADY KO!” still exists in my heart.  The gift is on transit. I do really hope that you will not throw it away. I’m also hoping that it can’t cause any destruction on a new relationship you are building now with someone else.

I don’t know what else I could say to you. Honestly, I want to slap your face for hurting me like this, but, what I want more is to kiss you and hug you tightly. Grrrrrrrrrrrr…!

Amping and God bless!

Bye! L